I Write Deep Stuff In A Dinosour War Zone.

Hello,

I have one day left before I go away.

I guess I am using this as a starting point for the first day of the rest of my life. I have been sort of waiting for it before I do anything else and it needs to stop. I know it will be happening tomorrow but for today, my life begins again. Today is the first day of the rest of my life.

My Mum reads this blog, did I ever tell you that. It makes her laugh and she keeps telling me that she isn't a hippie, she is just trying to save money but I think it is a bit of both. I interviewed her once about my depression and how it effected her. It was an interesting interview and it opened my eyes to what she was really feeling the whole time. My Dad always took a different view of everything, He was confrontational (which is not like him at all) he made me face my problem straight on and eventually it worked, between Mum's coaxing and Dads 'snap out of it' attitude, I admitted my problem and accepted that I had one. Thanks Mum and Dad.

I remember a conversation I had with my Dad a few years ago. He told me in passing that I seemed to treat people as if they were more important than me somehow. Those words somehow sparked a thought in me and I had my first and only epiphany to date. I realised that was exactly how I treated people and felt. I changed a lot because of that. I realised that I was my own person and that it was ok to be different. I grew up. I treat everyone equally now. But my depression changed me again and I spent countless hours, days, months in my room on my laptop with nothing else, hiding from the world.

This is what I have to work with, this is me so far. I hope I can get better and improve myself.

I will start on my To Do List today. hopefully, lets see what I can do? I can start on random acts of kindness or writing a letter to someone I admire at least.

(I just want to say while I am here, that I have just written a deep and meaningful blog post while listening to music and watching a Dalek, Ben 10 and dragon war take place on the desk beside me. my brother is using my face cream bottle to balance his TARDIS on. that seems somehow strange to me. but I have definitely broken the rule that says multi tasking is impossible, all you can do is multi fail. I am amazing!)

Bye.