Long Time No See!

Hello,

Long time no see!

Sorry for the big gap in bothering you with my useless drivelling AKA Writing etc. but I was depressed (again) Yes I really am that pathetic.

Of course all of my annoyingly supportive friends and family don't think (or say) that I am pathetic, but that is the way I feel. I also have a cold so I feel pretty sick too.

I am using the computer very little which makes a small difference to my mood but most of the time I feel completely crap. I don't really know how to feel better but I have started writing down the constant narration of my life through thoughts which streams through my head 24/7. It is sarcastic, rude, bitter and I use the F word A LOT! But it is my head and I kind of find it funny.

So as a summery of everything that has happened in my life recently, I have been depressed, written my thoughts and tried to survive each and every torturous day without exploding and shouting and swearing at all the kind people who are trying to help me. (However tempting it sometimes gets)

Although I am not glued to the computer though. I am not better, I still feel like shit and that hasn't changed as much as I hoped, so I will be seeking professional advice and help because however tough I try to be there are some times that I need to just ask for help. Sometimes, everyone needs someone else.

until the next time,

goodbye!!!